Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Clinging





I really enjoy just sitting back and watching our twins, Esther and Racquel.  They are 2 ½ years old and they are absolutely adorable!




The thing about them that fascinates me is how they cling to each other.  They are almost always together.  If you find one of them, you find both of them.  They look to each other to decide how to respond.  When I ask Esther if she wants to play with a certain toy, she looks at Racquel to see her sister’s reaction before giving her own answer.  When I give a new food to Racquel, she tends to looks at Esther to see how she is going to respond before deciding whether or not to graciously except the food.  Often they walk around holding hands.  I’ve even seen on a couple of occasions, where one of them stumbles and falls;  and instead of letting go of her sister’s hand, the second one falls right beside or on top of her.  Sure sometimes they fight and tell on each other.  But even then, there have been many times that they are holding hands while hitting each other with their free hand.

I am told that this is very typical of twins.  And these girls have had their world turned up-side-down, probably a few times, as they are moved from family to an orphanage to our group home.  I’m sure it is nice for them to always have each other there, someone to whom they can cling.




One day as I was watching these two little sweethearts walking and playing arm-in-arm, I started thinking about my relationship with Jesus.  Do I cling to Him the way I should?  Do I stay by His side at all cost?  Do I look to Him to see His reaction before I act?  Do I keep holding His hand no matter what happens? 



I am sorry to say that I fail at this many times.  I tend to walk solo.  I respond to people and circumstances without first looking at Jesus’ face to see what He thinks.  I tend to wander away from His side.  I stay in the same room so I can still see Him, but not close enough to His side to feel His every move.  Why do I do this?  I don’t know.  But I suffer for it every time I do it.  Fortunately, God knows that I love Him and have a sincere desire to follow Him.  So when I stumble, Jesus keeps holding my hand and helps me back up.  Thank You so much, Father.  And please help me to remember that it is easier to stay by Your side than to go solo.

 

My goal for today:  Cling to Jesus closer and tighter than I did yesterday.